Saturday, February 28

Following your dreams

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You stand in a cloud at S1. Everything is hazy. Like tenacious pugilists, One and Another prepare for battle.

Follow your dreams. Ah - the everhyped philosophrase. Another begins sparring, "So you have a dream, right? And you want to chase it? What if you're not good enough? What if a simple lack of ability puts your life at peril? Aren't things going smoothly enough right now?"

One says, "Put aside all doubt and believe in yourself. Capability is not a constant as they show in your 'appraisals', and is fuelled only by self-belief. Believe." Another says, "It's not practical. How often do people at your age switch careers? You're just being a quitter. Haven't you done that enough times already? It's a recession, man! Pull up your socks. You're a family man now, this is not like the days you were playing in the band."

Part one retorts,"Do you remember how happy you were playing in the band? Do you see your ex-band members and how happy they are to have followed their heart?" Another counters, "You just THINK they're happy, but are they? They struggle and they do what they love for a living, meaning they have to sell out. Their very purpose of doing it is destroyed." "Aha!", One says, "But when was the last time you practiced the guitar for 9 hours in a day, heck, even for one hour and had that infinite moment where you felt one with everything around you?"

"You may have a kid one day, how are you going to secure your family's future with music? And that too, starting now. You have to got to be kidding me. I can't believe you're even considering this!", you hear Another spout. "Not only music. Follow your dreams, man. Did you want this 9-to-5, sometimes 9-to-9 shit with all the insane jargon-to-cover-up-flawed-language-basics people? Remember the kind of visionaries you used to hang out with? Did you really want to take orders and have to do stuff day after day that strained your you-ness?"

Another, "Who says that there won't be highs and lows when you follow your heart? What if you turn to writing and fall out of work? What good is passion, love and all that without the money in the bank to feed the shell that houses your 'you-ness'?" One thickens the cloud, "Of what use is an empty house?"

You are still at S1, in a cloud that thickens with terrifying portent.

10 comments:

  1. English subtitles of Rock On?

    Sorry.. bad one. But well written. As personal as it may be.

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  2. Thanks J. Ya, it happens every once in a while. Will tide over, I suppose. Or maybe not.

    There I go again.

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  3. Hate to instigate anything here. And I am not even sure it's relevant. But I watched this http://www.zarias.com/?p=284 immediately after reading your entry. And something clicked.

    p.s.: The 1st 2 min of the vid might be misleading.

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  4. That was so relevant, and beautiful. I'm so undecided right now though that I really need something earth shattering to shake me out of my stupor. So don't worry, no harm done. Thanks for sharing. :)

    Keep the comments coming.

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  5. Jeez mate , thats a freaky coincidence.I felt the same thing and have quit a comfy job and going back to the Uni....Good luck and BTW the way I enjoy your readings but never bothered to comment, keep em coming..Cheers Srikanth

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  6. Thank you so much Srikanth. Wish you luck with your Uni.

    Thanks man, PJ.

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  7. Been going through this for a long time now. Responsibility and Rock band cannot exist in the same man i believe.

    Another Guitarist,
    Arun

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  8. Wow, I think I should found some sort of support group for us dreamer-not-doer types eh, Arun?

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  9. Been going through this for a long time now. Responsibility and Rock band cannot exist in the same man i believe.

    Another Guitarist,
    Arun

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